then and now

As I look in the mirror, there is no denying how far I've come. I started this life changing journey at 234 lbs. That was after the birth of my 2nd child.

I now weigh-in at 169 lbs as of this morning. I'm going to make Friday a weigh-in day and share on here how I've done for the week. Last week I was in the 170s, which has taken me at least 6 months to break that plateau. This week I have focused on food as fuel theory and I've poured my heart into my workouts. It seems to be paying off! I still have a ways to go, my goal is to be between 135-140, but more than that to be happy with my body.

One set back that I have encountered this week is weak knees. I wanted to run my first 5K on July 3rd, and I'm not so sure that will be able to happen now. Last week I went for a run, I set out to do 20 mins. The first 20 were a breeze, so I decided that I'd shoot for 25mins. I looked down to realize that the time said 25:30, so I make the choice to go for 30. Now my longest run before this was 20mins and I thought I would die afterward. I felt great this time.....until about 3am. Then the pains started. They are still there now, over a week later. I've continued to spin, do pilates and kettlebell cardio because none of those cause me pain. I'm afraid to run again. Today the knees feel a ton better, so I may venture to the treadmill, but we'll see how I feel after spinning this am.

All about control..

I think that I am now understanding that it's all a control thing. You just have to decide who to let control you. Do you control yourself, and be conscious of your decisions. Do you let those around you influence your choices about your health. Do you give in to that inner fat girl who tells you it's ok to sit down with a pint of ice cream and a spoon?

I've made my decison, I'm in charge around here! I think this change of having a blog and writing down my goals is really helping. I got a late start this week with the exercise, but I'm making up for it by working harder, instead of giving up on my goal.

I ran again yesterday. I want to be a runner, but I'm just not in love. I keep telling myself that there are no fat runners, so it's in my best interest to learn to love it. It's a work in progress for sure. I'm close to completing the C25K program, it has only taken me twice as long as it's supposed to! My schedule has kept me from a few of my favorite classes, but that's changing today. I'm making it a point to get back to what I enjoy, I need it for my sanity. Today will be my first day at bootcamp in about a month, wish me luck!

Business is picking up a bit too, so I've been spending more time at my sewing machine, which isn't great for the activity level, but at least the hands are busy and can't snack. So, who's in control of you today?