I need to work through this and find out why I do this. I would be embarrassed to even say what I ate today, I stopped doing my calories when it got to the point that I didn't want to see it anymore. I need to wake up tomorrow with a renewed sense of who I am and where I'm headed on this mission to a healthier me. I'm going to look at those precious faces of my babies and know that they are the reason I push on when I don't want to anymore. I want to be the mom that plays with them, not the one that watches from the sidelines.
Monday, May 9, 2011
I have a food addiction
I believe I may have hit bottom.....again. This is such a tough journey full of ups and downs and things that pull you in many directions to distract you. For example, this week my husband is working a different shift. What do I do while he's sleeping. I eat. and eat. and eat. I'm not hungry. I'm actually to the point where I'm full, but I'm bored and no one is watching. It is an awful feeling and I'll be headed to bed in utter disgust with myself.